This is hilarious. Here I am, freaking out like I have never been abroad before. I woke up today in a panic that I am unprepared and have made bad decisions. Then, I thought of looking back at my old blog from before my trip last year. It seems like I have a pattern of not trusting myself and the process. I want to get better at doing those things. This post is a good reminder and helps give me perspective. I was scared then, and everything was ok. I think my favorite part is the *note to self* at the end... as if I knew I would need the reminder :] It's just like when I had you guys write to your future selves to remind yourself of things. I told you I do it, too!
Tuesday, June 12, 2012
The approach....
I seem to process things easier when I think externally... so I thought I'd start writing now
- even before I go.
- even before I go.
Here I am... about to embark on a journey- a journey of which the seed was planted eight
years ago. When I was in college, I imagined studying abroad but I was too scared to go to
a country where I would not know the language. I planned to go to New Zealand!
I researched and planned, but it never happened. I didn't go.
years ago. When I was in college, I imagined studying abroad but I was too scared to go to
a country where I would not know the language. I planned to go to New Zealand!
I researched and planned, but it never happened. I didn't go.
It is interesting how the desire to study abroad stayed, while the new desire to study
Spanish emerged. Perhaps it is all perfect that I am going now, instead.
Spanish emerged. Perhaps it is all perfect that I am going now, instead.
I am nervous about many things:
- That I won't know enough to communicate when I get there
- That I keep second guessing myself on my choice of programs
and countries
and countries
- That my host family won't like me
- That there is so much unknown
- That it will be so freaking hot!
... and more importantly, I am also excited about many things:
- The unknown
- The possibilities
- The people I will meet
- The people who's stories I will hear and share
- All that I will learn
- The world that I will see with a new perspective
*Note to self to remember in life - You have a tendency to freak out before a big trip
and to even not want to go, anymore. It is ok. You've done this process before.
It will be awesome.
and to even not want to go, anymore. It is ok. You've done this process before.
It will be awesome.
- "Shift your approach, breathe, and go smoothly."
