I lay on the floor because it is the place I feel the best.
I look at a cockroach that is sharing that floor with me and don't do anything about its existence.
The dishes pile up in the sink.
Everything that I see on facebook reminds me of home and how I think I miss the things I never even liked in the first place.
I feel like there is a hole inside of me that can't be filled by anything I do.
Deep down, I know that this will pass... but, right now it doesn't feel like it will. It feels like I will lay on this floor forever and the cockroach and I will enter the apocalyptic world of Wally where we will become best friends and eat Twinkies that will never expire.
Do Twinkies even still exist or have the cockroach and I already outlasted them?
Twinkies almost went extinct with the closing of the Hostess company that made them. Some other company took over the twinkie product so it could live on into the far far future generations....
ReplyDeleteGood to see you reflecting on where you are, and seeing it is only temporary....good thing it doesn't last long.
You still have a great sense of humor and creativity, even in that state. That will get you through to a better space inside.
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