Things Fall Apart...

And yet they also, somehow, regenerate in new forms. This week I found myself "decepcionada" because my class at the pharmacy that I had been teaching since February finally had a slow painful death.  When it was going strong, it was so great.  We laughed and learned and had so much fun.  I loved working there.  As time went on, however, people stopped coming one by one.  The people who traveled from another town stopped coming first.  Then, the doctor had a baby and went on maternity leave.  Then, the schedules changed and the students who really cared could no longer come. 

For the last several weeks I had been going to the pharmacy once a week while they were working... just answering questions or helping them communicate with English speaking customers.  But then, this Monday, the doctor who still really cared about learning English was transferred to a different city (Perez Zeledon).  So, I'm pretty sure this job is now officially done.  

This sort of thing happens a lot in this town and it can get exhausting.... always needing to start over again.  Thinking you have created something that is going strong, only to find that people stop coming the next week... or people suddenly have to move away.

I remember when I had only lived here a few months an American that had lived here for years told me, "You have to be ok with re-inventing yourself; I mean like totally re-inventing yourself... at least 3 times a year."  I know understand what she meant. 

Some days this seems super overwhelming and difficult and I just want to be done with this whole thing - the instability, the volatile nature of projects, the unpredictability of situations... but then, something happens.

Things shift and something works again.

My part in the play at the theatre falls apart, but then I am invited to participate in a play my friend wrote in Puntarenas.  The pharmacy job falls apart, but then I have a new corporate job at MARTEC that is still going strong.  The improv group that had seemed like it was on its last leg (with only two participants coming consistently) suddenly has 9 new enthusiastic participants today!!!!  It's like the session started over... but it did it by itself. 

I don't even know how that happened, but there you go.  I often don't know how things happen... but they do. 

Like I said, "There's always another bus."