Even Amazing Things Can Feel Really Difficult

I wanted to make sure to share how challenging living abroad can feel.  Sometimes, I just feel like I am free falling for a very long time... never really landing anywhere.  It is like I took that leap of faith and am still in mid leap.  Sometimes I am fine, and other times it is all just too much.  The cars, the noises, the people, the smells, the Spanish.... the unknown future. It is like sensory overload and I just want to curl up and hide.  I know, of course, on a logical level that these sensations will pass and I will love it here  - but in the moment it is super hard and super lonely. 

Today was one of those days where I just couldn't handle any more input.  I went home early from school because my stomach was hurting all afternoon.  When I got home I just called my parents and cried.  Talking with them made me feel better and then right as the sun was setting, I went out for a walk.  As you can see, Barva was GORGEOUS!!!! I was so thankful to be here and to be experiencing all of this beauty.  I mean, here I am.... in Central America... living the life I have dreamed of since I started college.  Even if it is hard, that is something to be proud of. 

Also - when I got home, I had told my host mom that my stomach hurt - so she made soup to make me feel better.  She said it was the soup she made when people were sick.  I felt loved :]