I'm here...

Here I am in Barva de Heredia, CR.  I have  to admit that it feels very daunting right now to start a "normal life" from scratch in a totally new part of the world where I don´t know anyone.  I walk down the streets and every single face and sight is new.  It is excilerating (sp?)* and very uncomfortable.  I sit here, in my new room, trying to feel at home, two bags as my only posessions.  I am trying to not think about all the activities and friends that I left behind in Tucson and be totally present here, ready for whatever this journey may bring.  Even so, thoughts keep popping up in my head - why did I come here? What am I doing?  Do I want to stay?  Will I even like it?  Am I strong enough for this? Will it be worth it?


I think it will feel better once I get into the routine of going to school on Monday.  Then I will make friends and have a purpose.  Right now I´m just trying to adjust and get some rest.  I am sooooo tired from the GRE packing, moving, and selling my car - all in the past two weeks.  It has been a total whirlwind.

*Many of you know that spelling is not one of my strengths and this computer only has spellcheck in Spanish.  Sorry if there are errors.  I would look up how to spell them, but I can only google in Spanish as well.... oh, the little things in life that usually seem so easy like googling a word or figuring how to log out of your gmail account.

Thinking you are moving to a place semi-permenantly feels way different than traveling there with a determined end date.  This is a lot scarier for sure; this surprises me because I thought that knowing how to communicate in the language and already being familiar with Costa Rican culture would make it a lot easier. I guess it is harder on a different level.  I´ll try to appreciate this time of feeling so vulnerable and seeing the great unknown ahead.... Afterall, it won´t stay this way for long.