Grey Day

With all of this beauty around me, how can I feel homesick?  I feel really weird right now.  It is like I am homesick for the Middle School, for Barva, and for what I have known.  It is weird to feel homesick for a place you have only lived for a month... maybe it is because half of my belongings and many of the friends I have made in this country are still there. 

Today, the director of the Spanish school asked me how I was feeling in that exact moment.  I replied with, "Well, honestly.... I feel both excited about all of the possibilities and overwhelmed by them at the same time."  I have many choices I need to make in the next few days or week.  Yes, more choices!  haha....

I need to decide if I would like to stay here in Quepos and pursue opportunities here, try something new, or if I would like to go back to Heredia.  I know that, ultimately, whatever I do will be fine but the decisions still feel really important.  For now, I will stay another week and continue studying Spanish with my awesome teacher.  Maybe things will feel clearer next week. 

I realized, today, that it might be odd... but the time when I feel really alive and in the flow is while I am teaching.  There is just something about listening and responding instantly to people's needs that I love.  It must be the same feeling I have when I do improv (man I miss improv).  So, "por lo menos", at least I know that I still love teaching - especially when my students are as appreciative as the ones I have now.