Making More Tough Decissions

I had thought that when I came to Costa Rica, my difficult decisions would be over.  I had thought that the most difficult decision was to come here in the first place.  Maybe it was,  but that was not the end. 

Here I am... graduating from my TEFL program tomorrow... with vastly different options.  Yesterday morning I had no work, no place to live, and no plan.  I talked with the director at my old Spanish school and he told me to come on down to Quepos to hang out and study for a week.... to clear my head.  One of my major goals in coming here in the first place, was to become more proficient in Spanish.  I have noticed that I have spent a lot more time speaking English than Spanish in the last month.  I also really feel pulled to Quepos - the trees, the ocean, the people.... (the lack of gasoline in my lungs).

So, yesterday, I decided that I was going to go.  I was going to take another leap of faith and hope that this new move or weeks vacation would work out well.  Then, yesterday afternoon, I had another interview (was offered that job for 6 hrs on Saturdays) and another job (for 18 hrs starting this coming Monday).  The catch is... they need someone right away... so the choice would be to either stay here and plow full speed ahead in work (not knowing the next opportunity I would have to travel, but having the stability of a job) or to trust my instincts and go on search of the next adventure/opportunity.  My gut is telling me that there is more I will be able to create that I am not yet aware of.  That I do not need to snatch up the first opportunity just because it feels like something safe in a world that is so unfamiliar.  I didn't come all the way here to jump from one commitment in the US to another in Costa Rica.  I didn't come all this way to be fearful of change and new possibilities, for that is what this whole experience is. 

I have made up my mind.  I am going to Quepos to see where the next adventure may lead.  I am diving into the current, unaware of - but excited about where the river will take me.  Like I said in a previous post... when you are ready, a guide will appear.